As you have been noticing, building our tiny house is more than just physically building a house.
The process is quite magical.
Since
we started, a lot of things "came to the surface" - this meaning that
behavior patterns, ideas, tendencies and believes come to our
consciousness frequently.
And that's one of the things that I most love from this: it is so complete and mysterious at the same time.
We
have to be with what is. If we don't, we suffer. It's been our
experience that if we just let go of any expectation, things are what
they are. It's a choice, everyday. Either we live or we suffer.
It's a challenge in a world of agendas, expectations, desires and other movements that keep us away from what we are in reality.
But today, I only speak from myself, from my own experience.
Today,
I am disappointed. But in the middle of sadness and frustration I sense
that the right thing is happening. It doesn't matter why, but it's just
what is.
Every time that I force anything to happen exactly in the way that I want it to happen, I suffer.
Today I am disappointed because I thought that the wood was going to arrive and it isn't.
Look at this perfect 2 examples of what I am speaking about:
1
- The other day I saw myself looking at David sanding the trailer and
thinking: what am I doing, work wise, in this trailer? Nothing! I am
doing Nothing. I am useless. With no skills to put a house up. I am
nothing! And so, I just went out and asked him if he wanted some help
for what he was doing. He said no, but I insisted. So, I helped him to
move a cement base to put under the trailer so he could level it. In the
process of doing it I banged my head into a piece of metal under the
trailer. It heart so much and at the precise moment that that happened I
could see that it's no use of forcing things! It's a ridiculous waste
of time not being with what is. I am everything! It doesn't matter what I
am doing if I am doing it with all my heart. I am not what I do. Things
at the moment are like this and I was not accepting that.
2
- Today I called the wood yard, because the wood was supposed to come
this week. At the beginning they told us that the wood was coming the
same week that we ordered, but then they found out that they didn't have
the measurements that we needed in dry wood. So, this week was the
week! But no! They made a mistake and the 150 pieces of wood were not
dried by them! What to do now? Wait another month for it to dry? Use
green wood?
We are going to complain for sure. But one question came to us: working with dry wood in the rain is a waste of money?
What to do?
We decided to stay with it for a while, meditate and go for a big walk.
And enjoy the beautiful life that we have.
It's
a choice that it's very important because the weather is going to
change: bye bye sun, hello rain. And we had other plans for January.
We are going to stay with it, but at the same time we need to make a decision.
(Missanga in her Tiny House)
Isn't life curious and so mysterious?
With love,
Raquel
#UPDATE#
We called again to the wood yard and they said that some wood is dry and ready to be picked up next week!
So next Tuesday we are going to Venda de Galizes!