Monday 26 March 2018

Scary times - evolutionary times

Did we think that this might happen?
No!

Life is a surprise... always.
These last times, after the fire and the strong winds and rain, made us question everything. Really everything.
But first things first. Just have a look at this and to what happened:



You can see the bit of land that just slided down!



Where the caravan is.


Where the Tiny house is.

The experience that I had was similar to the one after the fire: a gigantic fear that seemed to control me. That seemed to stop me from breathing (I had and still have lack of air in my lungs).  I couldn't sleep well and rest. I couldn't meditate. I couldn't write or read. Everything was stressful. Everything was intense. I would hear more rocks and soil going down and a big movie would start to play in my brain - thought after thought telling me that we were going to lose things again. That both the Tiny House and the caravan were going to fall down the mountain with all of our things. And worst, that we would be sleeping in the caravan and that the wind and the rain, would pull us down the hill. What a death!
My experience was that I couldn't live. That all of this was preventing me from living the life that I/we were supposed to live now.

We noticed that that is a need to be secure, to know that nothing is going to change, a need for stability, for everything being good with no problem or crazy situations. A need for everything to be flat and with no strong emotions.
But what is this need? A need that comes from a part of us that is not real, but it is experienced as so real and so alive. These strong emotions seem to make it real. But what is this "it" that I am refering to?
If you are a human being, I am sure you experienced this. All of these emotions and intensity is not bad at all! Everything is part of life, it is life. Everything is God/Consciousness.

After a while, and continuing to sit in the meditation cushion and to live in rainny and uncertain days, and with the help of Australian florals, a lot was revealed:

- Life is expressed in every moment and situation, no matter what the human experience is;
- There is no bad or good situations, but situations that cause different emotional experiences;
- There is nothing wrong in having emotional experiences;
- A human being is rich and there is a perfection in how one experiences different situations;
- Avoiding, denying and not accepting what happens (what is) leads to suffering;
- Accepting and embrancing what happens (what is) leads to reality and to a deep relaxation;
- Control or wanting to predetermine the future it's, not only a waste of time, but something that prevents oneself to be and live the present moment, and is actually an ilusion;
- One has the choice to respond in a liberated or in a constrained/conditioned way to any life situation;
- Every moment is the moment to make a different choice;
- One doesn't know what surprises life/universe/God/consciousness has for oneself and that's a relief;
- The peace that comes after the storm it's one's choice;
- The peace can happen during the storm or not happen at all, but that doesn't take reality or presence ever away!
- One is not victim of life situations, one is!


And these floral remedies were great to stay with the constant fear and the questioning why - why there is such a threat after the house survived to the fire and to the caravan which is where we are living now? 
That and knowing that everything is right, no matter what.


For now, and after talking with Sr. Ângelo and his visit here, everything is not only calm, but fresh and alive. Nothing is a warranty of anything! Except that consciousness is, no matter what. No matter if one is challenged, is suferring, avoiding or denying what is happening.
Life is so beautiful and full. 
One is beautiful and full, in the midst of intensity and in the possibility of a transformation or a strong challenging situation.

Right now, the days are getting bigger, sun is up and the light and calmness are big. Actually, lightness and relaxation are all the time, I was just distracted from it, which is fine!

With love,
Raquel